in sick mode... 22/6

its monday.. 1st day of sch after the weekend break.. y do v call weekends 'weekends'? its because weekends signifies the end of a week n normally, ppl take a break during the weekends. my part of the story is, my weekend had been stressful than b4. tis kinda stress is weird, way too weird. the stress is powerful enuf to cause my heart locked up in a bird cage, where i cant b freed from 'the cage of structural conc design assignment'... although the pressure is there, but i m still nt motivated to study everything in order to design the structure elements.. personally, i think its quite impossible for a person to study everything, unless u r damn damn pro... unluckily, i m nt the 1.. but still dunno y, i kept pressuring myself to study all. aiyar, now even my slumber time, i cant runaway from thinking abt the assignment.. torturing... frankly speaking, i only done a little part throughout the weekends. other time had been used up for family day, basketball n drink tea session. wat a failure.....

yesterday, i was starting to feel the atmosphere of the fruit season cuz i enjoyed the durian feast at my grandpa's hse.. unfortunately, probably cuz of the sick weather n oso the excessive of durian eating, nt feeling well 2day.. flu n cough came to me.. m i diagnosed with H1N1?? pls dont.. i m too young to die.. i still gt plenty of stuff haven do... i wan go taiwan for vacation.. if really kena, dunno kena at where le? time sq? or while playing ball? too much probability... (hope by 2mr everything will b ok...)

therefore, in sick mode now.. but there is still assignment to b done.. haven been slp-ing early for the past (uncounted) days... there is still approx 6 mths to christmas... i had been wishing.. all i wan for christmas is my gd nite slp..

after being a failure as a student, i m continuosly being a failure as a son.. din even prepare a special celebration for my father for the past father's day.. the only special thing was, having durian at granny's hse.. even dinner v had it at hm.. sometimes, pity my dad too, cuz his sons neither prepare a cake for father's day nor a small present, jz to comfort his heart.. will my sons treat me so too? no doubt they will.. boys r less expressable of their gratitude to parents compared to gals, dont u agree?

assignment, assignment... go away, come again another day.. assignment assignment go away, little justin wan to play.....